as i am

Father i want you to hold me
i want to rest in Your arms today
Father i want you to show me
how much You care for me
in every way

i bring all my cares
and i lay them at Your feet
You are always there
and You love me as i am
yes You love me as i am

Father i know you will hold me
i know i am your child your own
Father i know You will show me
i feel Your arms holding me
i'm not alone

i bring all my fears
and i lay them at Your feet
You are always here
and You love me as i am
yes You love me as i am

words and music by Brian Doerksen

this is a song that has been familiar to me for a very long time
one of those songs that i can remember hearing on a tape... some of my first favorite songs i heard first on a tape! ... total sidenote.

anyway, this song became like a personal friend to me a few years ago... when my grandpa klassen was getting sicker i spent a lot of time singing and playing my piano (i spend a large portion of my walk with God in song, both privately and publically) there were times that i would start to sing and i would just stop and weep. sometimes i could keep playing, while i just cried and cried

when my grandpa passed away i spent a lot of time with this song

and this morning i returned to my old friend

it is the beginning of 2009, and the beginning of this year is very different than last year

i'm starting by asking of God. i want rest, and i want God to SHOW me how much he cares.
but the second verse is equally as important
telling God this... God i KNOW you will. i KNOW.

and thats how i wish to start this year. in trust. with hopes. with love. KNOWING that God will continue to be God, and he will... He will.