standing or stumbling

honesty, insight & iced coffee

i named my blog with that title because those are 3 things that i really appreciate.

i love when people are honest with me. and i love when people take the time to hear my honesty.

i love sharing my insight on different things, and hearing other peoples input, opinions & thoughts.

and i love coffee! especially iced.. mmmm although, on this snowy christmas eve morning, my coffee is HOT! :)

this week i have learned about honesty on a new level.

after reading a friends blog about where she is at in life right now, with all it's struggles, i realized that i was really resonating with her words. i so appreciated the honesty that she wrote with, and it really helped me see how i've been struggling, and how freeing it is, to put your struggles into words.

i think that i have been walking through a very deep grief, with stress and depression thrown into the mix. every monday, the week looks longer than i can handle, and my health, my home and my sanity are all taking the hit because of it!

on monday night i was able to sit with my family, first my brother&sister and then my parents, and was able to share thoughts and have them pray over me/us and with me/us. i am SO thankful that we never walk through life alone.

i have so much more to share about this, but i think it will just come out in snip-its. i am going to soak up the next couple of days, celebrating christmas with my family, relaxing, laughing, dwelling in Jesus, and moving ahead a step at a time.

once again, jon bullers music has been a gift to my soul. last year my mom gave me his cd 'broken drum' that (i believe) he wrote a lot of while walking through a depression. there is always such hope in his music, with Jesus ever present. lately this song "falling" has been playing on repeat, and the lyrics help put some of my emotions into words.

in the terrible thunder, in the shaking of earth and sky

shadows in the valley, in the meeting of You and I

and here all around me, and within my broken heart

standing or stumbling, I know You're healing me

the melting of springtime feeds the stream that I'm planted by

the wind whispers gently, to live you must learn to die

and here all around me, and within my broken heart

standing or stumbling, I know You are healing me

hear my cry for help I'm falling

my king and my God hold my heart, I'm falling

my need is greater than its ever been

in the midst of the morning, in the shade of the evening sun

in the colours of autumn, a new season has begun

and here all around me, and within my broken heart

standing or stumbling, I know you are healing me

hear my cry for help, I'm falling

My king and my God, hold my heart I'm falling

Hear my cry for help I'm falling

and here all around me, and within my broken heart

standing or stumbling

I know You're healing me