random thoughts on a wednesday

last year in February I decided to leave Facebook
and I never had a twitter account (although I will admit that I do read some twitter accounts since you can do that without having one, and in particular I find some of the jet's players quite funny!)
so technically my blog and my pinterest are my only "social media" outlets

I haven't missed Facebook, but every now and then I think "hmm if I had a Facebook, I would put this random thought as my status" - and every now and then I miss regaling the world with my random thoughts. so.. on this Wednesday I decided to just post some random tidbits. I'm sure you're all thrilled.. right? :)

*this summer Michael finally got a bike! and we have been loving going on bike rides together on summery days.

*this morning I made the worst smoothie of all time. It tasted like water & bran flakes. But looked like raspberry. Since I'm always running late in the morning, I had no time to make a new one.

*I have never been more in love with air conditioning as I am this summer. it is a life saver!

*my cat, Chips, has started using my pillow as her bed at night.

*my sister, Phoebe, is currently at her "white coat ceremony" on her second day of med-school. I'm watching the live stream at work - look how cute she is in purple :)

 

*I think my baby was inspired by all the trampolining and gymnastics I watched during the olympics, because it never sits still. This has become my favorite thing to experience!

*I have decided that my favorite 2 things to eat are: licorice (of any kind) and spring rolls from Empress of China. Pregnancy has made this very apparent!

*This past Monday was the day Michael & I started dating, 6 years ago! Which was quickly followed by a lot of 'drama' and 'scandal' as some believed at the time.. I'm so glad we are past all that!!

*Tomorrow I will be 29 weeks pregnant - and I'm getting bigger (although I always imagined I'd have a bigger pregnant belly earlier) and right now (well technically this picture was taken yesterday) I look like this:

*I really enjoy summer TV, although most people probably wouldn't claim to like all of these shows, I really enjoy reality tv! (my summer favorites: big brother, bachelor pad, hell's kitchen, master chef, and I even happen to enjoy the glass house.)

*I actually enjoy going to the dentist - and I am going today! I love having clean teeth.

*I have come to realize that when you are pregnant, people love to tell you pregnancy "horror stories" - mostly about ripping/tearing extremely bad, and pooping. Not sure why anyone thinks this is helpful...?

*I'm convinced mosquitoes are in love with me. The other day I was covered, head to toe in clothes (even socks - and I almost NEVER wear socks) and I even had some bug spray on.. and I got a bite on my hip, my pregnant belly, the palm of my hand and the bottom of my foot. Really?!

*My brother is currently in New York and I am SO JEALOUS. He's been sending me pictures, and it makes me want to go so badly. I'm hoping that maybe Michael & I (and our wee baby) can make a trip to New York this winter.. we shall see. Doesn't it sound so dreamy to be walking in central park, with cozy mittens & scarves, with a sweet baby bundled up in a bjorn snuggled close to mom or dad, drinking a chai latte and taking in the sights?? I will dream..

I am sure there are many more random tidbits I can share.. but it's getting a little lengthy! Hope you enjoyed catching up on my random thoughts, I know you've all been missing hearing them on facebook, right? :)

enjoy your day!

hold on to me as a we go...

I'm not sure how many other people still watch American Idol, but I do even though after Taylor Hicks won I swore I would NEVER watch again...
This past season was probably my favorite of all the seasons. The judges are more positive and give more constructive criticism as opposed to just being grumpy (aka simon cowell). It was also my favorite season because I was so happy with who won.. a guy named Phillip Phillips (maybe I'll name our baby Thiesse Thiessen, since the double name seemed to work for Phillip). He was my favorite because it was so obvious that he was there because he loved making music, he loved performing because it meant he got lost in the music - he wasn't there to be "adored" or praised for what he did (although that's a nice bonus I'm sure). He was there to just be who he was, and express himself through this creative outlet of music. And he had one of the most attractive qualities a person can have (in my opinion) - a humble spirit. When they announced that he won, he had to sing his new single - Home - and it was emotional to watch (and apparently something I get emotional talking about.. pregnant much?) because he was just so humbled at the support for who he truly is, that he couldn't even make it through singing the whole song and he ended up walking off the stage to cry with his family.
By far my favorite TV moment of 2012.

Anyway, this song has become one of my favorites and it came on this morning when I was watching the weather channel as I was getting ready for the day, and has been playing in my mind since then. I'm  in the process of making a mix CD of songs that make me think about our little baby, and this journey of preparing to be parents and just these months of anticipation and fun. I intend to listen to it in the car during the last few weeks before my due date, and if I decide to listen to music when I'm in labour (I'm undecided as to whether I'll find music enjoyable or annoying when I'm in pain.. time will tell) then it will be part of that mixture of songs. I decided this morning that this song, Home, is going on that mix - partially because I just love it and how it sounds, but also because of a lot of the words.

Recently I have been starting to have some thoughts (I was going to say doubts, or fears, or concerns.. but those all sound like such downers) about what it will really be like to take on the role of being a mom, and being parents, Michael & I together. No one gives you permission to become a parent, no one can really tell you what to do, or fully prepare you for this huge (and amazing) new role. I'm gathering that it is a lot of trial and error. I have been having a lot of dreams lately, and the other day the main thing in my dream was that my baby was born but I kept living life as if it wasn't. I would get up and leave for the day, and I went days without feeding or changing my baby. I woke up in a bit of a panic!

I've always known I want to be a mom, and that I think Michael will be an awesome Dad. We have wonderful examples, especially in our parents and Josh & Leah. We are so excited for this all to really start - but it is also completely new territory. So many unknowns which is both the exciting and terrifying thing about it!

I am very aware that Satan likes to take our doubts and our personal weaknesses and blow them out of proportion. He likes to make me wonder if I can even do this at all! But, I am confident in who I am, in who God made me to be, in Michael, in our support of family & friends. And well, I love this baby so much, and if I'm terrible at everything else, at least it will know it is completely and utterly loved!

So, back to the song, Home - I feel like the words play into all of this journey for me - "hold onto me as we go, as we roll down this unfamiliar road... don't pay no mind to the demons that fill you with fear... just know you're not alone, I'm going to make this place your home."

I am so looking forward to this new stage of life being home.

Hold on, to me as we go
As we roll down this unfamiliar road
And although this wave is stringing us along
Just know you’re not alone
Cause I’m going to make this place your home

Settle down, it'll all be clear
Don't pay no mind to the demons
They fill you with fear
The trouble it might drag you down
If you get lost, you can always be found
Just know you’re not alone
Cause I’m going to make this place your home

does this make anyone else cry? no? just me? oh well :)