your praise goes on

your praise goes on : jon buller

the moon is high and the sunset fades, lullabies have all been sung

we're tucking in another day - stars appear now one by one

the stillness moves and the silence yields, not a single beat is lost

you can hear the chorus in the fields - taking up where we left off

and your praise goes on

rising to Your throne

where you guide us while we dream

past the stars they fly

your praises fill the sky

till the setting of the sun

and Your praise goes on

bring your warmth oh morning sun, chase the stars and the moon away

wake us with your brightest dawn - add our voice to your refrain

rise up everything that lives, clap your hands and leap for joy

forest lift your arms and sway - clap your hands you ocean waves

and your praise goes on

rising to Your throne

where you bless our toil and play

through the clouds they rise

your praises fill the skies

till the setting of the sun

and Your praise goes on

when my final breath you lend

I'll thank you for the life you've gave

but that won't mean the praises end

cause I won't be silenced by the grave

and Your praise goes on

I'll be running to your throne

with every nation tribe and tongue

to your arms I'll fly

I'll gaze into your eyes

then I'll know, as I am known

and Your praise goes on

and Your praise goes on

and Your praise goes on...

being home in the morning is a new privilege for me with my new job. two mornings a week I can be home, alone. or do errands or sleep or read or pray or sing... the mornings are a gift to me. this morning my aunt had emailed me asking me about pictures of my grandma and songs that we could use for her slideshow. Auntie Corinna and I worked on grandpa's slideshow together last time as well, and it was very special to be able to show it to him before he died. Maybe we'll have the same privilege with Grandma. the above song is one that just brought tears to my eyes thinking about Grandma meeting Jesus.

truth is - Grandma is likely leaving us very shortly. her cancer is out of control. her calcium and creatine levels are higher than they should ever be. her blood is low and getting lower. a few days ago she was so confused that all I could do was weep beside her bed.

I wrote on facebook the other day that "preparing to let go of someone is a little easier when you know she is longing to run into the arms of Jesus". I believe that Grandma has glimpses of heaven. that she is ready to run to Jesus.

Leah and I were talking about Heaven the other day and I love the way she was describing it to me the way she sees it because it fit the way that I see it as well. we don't think it will be this huge "zoom" of transformation from this world to the next. but rather it will be like the perfect and complete feeling of content. of being home. everyone you have ever loved will be there. and you will be known. I believe that Grandma is so ready to feel that love wash over her. I believe she is getting glimpses of sitting next to Grandpa again, of hearing his voice and no longer feeling like half of her is gone. I think he is ready to have her by his side again.

I will always miss her, this side of heaven. but I am so ready to let her run and gaze into the eyes of Jesus.

and Your praise goes on...